Ben Tay is one of my best friend. No doubt about that. Always there to let me vex my anger. No matter how i whack, suan, scold or shout at him, he will still forgive me. Such a forgiving guy huh? SERIOUS. Don even have any thought that those words above are lies. But sometimes he will give u a very weird look which make u feel like giving him a tight slap.

N level coming real soon. About a week plus left? Should really get myself to sit down and really study.

ABOUT 20 MORE DAYS TO RELAXATIONS~!

I fucking fail my physics. Got only 5 marks for MCQ. Wad the fuck. Got only 20/50.



Why must people get fucking jealous?
This cause plenty of problems.
FUCK IT~!
Feel like whacking someone, who will be so kind? =)

English got 59.7 hope can push to 60 cause there is an increase of marks for my paper 2. After school went hope to change and have lunch at hougang mall wif cy ben asmine py jos ronald and kok. But like only me asmine cy and ben who ate. Kena blamed for things i had not done -.- . Never mind im a forgiving guy. Thanks asmine for helping me buy. Im such a lazy guy. Hmmm. Asmine cant u just wait for ben. At least u don need to walk home alone. =P Later the lao ti gou come find u then u know. Went to interchange wif ben to top ur his lan jiao ez link. Then went home, wanted to dota. Ben de lj com go crazy. And because of that, no dota. PU NIA BOR. Ben de lj language.

Got back some of my results for Prelim today. Fail DnT 40.9% Feel like giving it up. 28.5 for chemistry the lowest among those who pass. 85 for maths =) only thing to be proud of so far. Top in class ^.^ Actually can score better. But nvm its okay. 75 also A1 100 also A1. so why score so high? Getting eng and physic tomorrow i guess. Hope that i can score for both and see what is my best 3 subject. And what score i could get for them. N levels coming. 3 MORE WEEKS~! STUDY STUDY STUDY.

My mum went back to the mac to get harshbroen for us. And she say she saw two harshbrown lying down on the floor near the basketball court when she came back for the 2nd time. Obviously she drop it. -.-

Yesterday night, went to supper with ernest, aaron, bing long and des. But des came at around 150. Cause he thought it was still at midnight. Maybe he is living in a different time frame. After eating Mr. Chew gave us lesson about his theroy. Reached home at about 340. Just now my mum bought me mac for breakfast. And that fucking cb from mac din give the harshbrown. Fucking hell. Spoil my fucking mood again. The harshbrown is so nice. So looking forward to eat it every sunday. But that assclown din give it to her.

The last post is about reflection. Sometimes when u are just sitting down. Doing nothing, you will think of all this. So i decided to write i down. And it really help release some of the stress. Thanks to those whu care about me.

Haiz. Feeling more and more fucked up each day. Don know when will this ever end. Sometimes i really feel like ending it just like that. Then all the problems for myself will be solve. But wad about others? My friends and family around me? I would be such an asshole if i do so. Not considering about others. Im just 16 and im thinking of all this. i cant believe wad if i live till 60? That is 44 more years. I think all i can do is to be strong and try to change my mentality of all this. Sometimes i wonder, people smoke or take drugs cause they are stress. Isn't that same as suciding? Trying to escape from the problem. Not considering about others. Just that they do not die straight. My mum once said, im a calm guy. not worrying about anything that will happen to me in my life. Even if the sky drop, i will just treat it as a blanket and cover it over me. But i don think that is right. People may do stuff totally different from wad they are thinking. Maybe they dont wan others to worry about him or they just think that they can solve their own problem. Who have no worries? Who have no stress? But like one of my dear friend said. Stress give us the power to be mature. I think all this is part of growing up. So i guess i must take it, like a man. Face every problem up ahead. Tian wu jue ren zhi lu. All i need is PERSEVERENCE. Suddenly i feel that im such a problematic child.

Ben is so cool. In the the first pic. He so happy having the chance to have lunch with us. In the 2nd pic. He fold his arms and stared into space. And OMG. For tat moment, i tot i saw JAY ZHOU in front of me. In the 3rd pic, he shows that he is a true singaporean. Even saying the pledge before his meals. As though he is a Chirstian. But he say the pledge instead of praying. The 4th pic is another version of pic 2. The 5th pic is another angle of him. I had nothing to say. He is juz so cool. 6th pis is also another pic of pic 2. Pic 2 is the best.

Here is ben my good fren eating happily.

Oh my god. Steve Irwin is dead. He is one of my idol since young. I will miss him and all his show. Belated happy birthday to u ASMINE. Wait slowly for your present next year. MAYBE i will get u one. Having ss n level today. Such a boring paper. It have to start 2 and end at 330. Kinda lame. But after this i can enjoy life. =) At least for the rest of the week.

N level chinese tomorrow. And social studies the day after. I guess i will be staying at home all day today, just like yesterday. Never even step out of the house. So there is nothing to write about. Hope i have enough time to study for both of the subjects. And dont forget what i had studied during the exam.