Im feeling high today. Woohoo. I was woo-ing on my way back home from school and wei jie asked me to stop. Haha, sorry man. I think im influenced by my friends. They were just so high and happy all the time. I wonder how they do that.

Today dnt lesson was ....... We argue with the teacher until the HOD of Dnt is there. Cool huh. We started debating the teacher. THE ARENA! Is the whole class VS the two teachers. Awesome. I was so angry till i say AIYA GO SIT WITH CHEE GUAN(someone who drop dnt) BETTER LA. Then the HOD goes. IVOR IVOR IVOR don give up so easily. Seriously man, who gives a shit. He said don give up just because of one matter. But the fact is, its plenty of matter.

How i wish i can be happy, cheerful and smiling at all times. I love to see people smile. Cause when they smile it makes me feel better or happier too.

SOOOO SMILE PEOPLE! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


And one more thing, i finally can do pull up!

IM SO ADDICTED TO ORANGE JUICE!
AND NOW I HAVE NO MORE LEFT!
ARGH!!!!



I’m so addicted to how she’s the sweetest drug

Woke up this morning even before the alarm goes off. Still abit tired but i tink i have enough sleep. Wont be able to make it to wee chat's birthday celebration cause i needa go to my father side to pay respect to my late grandfather. I guess i will have plenty of request to ask from him. Last year me and my cousin had an outrageous request which im gonna keep it me me and him only. And a chance to talk to another cousin of my of the same age. Its been awhile since we met. Sorry guys, maybe i will join u guys after that. Friday night is going to be drinking night once again. But this time it will be wine and beer, not liquor. My father gave some to my brother but i took some from my brother. =D Now finding a nice place to drink.


Sometimes a simple smile can cheer someone up.

Not going to be a long post today. As im very tired. I even fall asleep during ss lesson. SLEEP NEEDED! Went to watched Mr bean holiday as my gal wanna watch it. Quite a funny show and mr bean look like a gay. But the story line is kinda lame. I think thats all folks =D

So today i travelled with my father to the west side of the country. We went to his work place, some industries area and to his house. In between he brought me to the swimming complex at jurong to have a look. I've only heard about it and have not been there before. We went there but we did not went in as we don have much time to swim. Guess i will have to ask people to go with me then. But its at JURONG! Don think most of my friends will have the patience to travel all the way from hougang to jurong just to swim. It was a sunny day as there were not much clouds there to block the sunlight. I took a couples of pictures of the clear blue sky when we were on the express way. Awesome view. I love the sky and clouds. I don really know the roads that well in the west compared to the east. After that i came back to cook dinner for my gal. Hopes she like it.


Cant believe im still up and awake. I only slept about 2hrs 30mins last night man.

I saw a wonderful picture and i decided to share it. =D


There it is! Awesome huh. The one on the left is my good friend Cy. And the one on the right is wee chat, who is trying his best to be like cy

Just came back not long ago. Soccer was tiring man. Did plenty of running and it almost killed me, why am i so unlucky. Always grouped to a team with lesser people. Hmm, but its okay. KEEP FIT! Got a new cap from my gal, love it very much gonna post the pic of it on the next post. Have not took a picture of it. Going to ernest house later on, we need this kind of bonding every week man. I shall end here as my bro wanna use the com.


Behind the smiles lies the broken heart. Nice phrase by cy.

Woke up this morning thinking i was going to be late for school, and suddenly realise it was a saturday. -.- 4 weeks till mid year exam, guess im gonna study real soon. Yesterday, vectors wad thought in class and i wasn't able to pay attention. So don kinda understand what is it about now. Cant wait till O levels. Hopefully i can get a laptop using my result =D

FUCK IT LA. Should not have fucking dropped to na in sec 4. Then i will be in a fucking poly or wadever now la. Knnbccb. Feel that im so stupid now. Maybe im just pure fucking dumb.

Hmm. I guess today is not a day for me. At 9 my mum called and asked whether her keys is at home and i saw it so i replied yes. So she requested me to pass the keys to her cause without it, she will have to walk home, instead of riding a bike which she always does. So i used another bike of hers to travel to her work place, although i was kinda reluctant, but no choice. Don expect me to make her walk all the way home after such a tiring day. On my way back, i freaking spoilt the bike. I was like an idiot, trying to fix the bike at the side of the road. But i cant. So i have to move the bike back to my house and try to fix it with some tools. And once again i look like an idiot traveling on a bike but using both of my legs to push myself forward. Can you imagine how retarded i look like by doing so? Oh my, but at least i fixed the bike before my mum reach home. So she wont complain anthing. =D IM REALLY ALL TIRED OUT NOW.

Just got back from playing soccer. Its been awhile since we played in the rain. Today nothing much happen in school, only the last lesson was cancelled. Cause chinese teacher had to attend some course or wad. Guess im not going to write much today. Very tired, maybe i shall rest early today.

A few of my friends have a plan to cut botak together. Maybe there will a brand new me in june. =D

Hmm, last night im not able to sleep well. I think it took me about an hour before i fall asleep. Tossing and turning on my bed. Not only that, i woke up at 4+ and it took me some time before i can go back to sleep once again. I woke up at 6 too, many people wake up at that time to go to school. But not for me, so i went back to sleep and woke up at 740.


Something is troubling me and causing me not to be able to sleep well.

Today in school was fucked up man. First lesson, Dnt i showed my teacher my idea. And without even taking a good look at it, he gave me a one word comment, lousy. And he ask me to do it again. So i flared up and tore the paper into pieces, crush it and threw it away. Kinda went emo after that. I just stood at the back out my class while waiting to get into the social studies class. While waiting Martin asked me what happen, is it ben tay dont want to friend me. I know this sound kinda childish but those are the words he said to me. Before i can answer him kevin and him went to confront him. Hahaz, they are such nice guys. Although they are jokers at times. While walking into the class, Martin asked me to cheer up and gave me a hug. And yea, kinda needed that. This may sound gay or wad, but sometimes you really need a friend to be there for you. And a hug will do just fine. English lesson after that, scolding and scolding once again. Hmm. When going up to the hall after recess, me, ben tay, ben tan and paul talked about commiting sucide. Kinda cool if four us die together. Hahaz, Paul and friends are going jamming after school and he asked me along. But it would be kinda weird for someone with no musical talent to go jamming. So i passed

Hope this will stop.

I needa get headphones like my bro's man. Its awesome. The sound quality, POWER. Best for blasting music. I think if i use it on the street, i wont even know if there's a car horning me. I guess im gonna come out with a list of music which i can blast when im sad man. Welcome to my black parade - My chemical romance is going into the list for sure. Awesome song to blast.


Really needa find out what happen to one of my brothers man. He seems so sad and hardly see him smile nowadays.

Finally what i have been training paid off. Finally i can see some shape in my chest.

And cy i will be glad to help u edit ur poems, its improving my english man.

Woowhoo, Yeewhoo!

I guess blasting music can be my favourite pastime soon. I blast music whenever im feeling down or what. The louder it is, more sad i am. I just help me to calm myself down no matter what. Today is my first time in my life i blasted max volume using my ipod. I guess i owe alot to my ipod man. If not for it, i think i will go crazy man. And of course there were some listening ears i would like to thank.



Its on the verge man. One more push and thats it.

Last day of holiday and i have not step out of the house since morning. Breakfast Mac, bought by my mum, lunch instant noodles, dinner instant noodles again i guess. Did not really do much stuff the whole day just thinking and thinking. Thinking of plenty of stuffs, from studies to friends, everything of my entire life man. I realise something, my imagination can really run wild man. Dont really know whether this is good or bad. Dont really have much to write about. Fuck it man. This feeling sucks to the core. Guess im gonna do my Math homework now.

I dont know how to be fine when im not.

Today was quite a tiring day too. Woke up at 9 in the morning to meet up with my gal to have macdonald's breakfast. =D Its been awhile since we ate that. Watch stomp the yard after that. Was a nice show, kinda touching for me. A guy went to a university and study real hard just for his dead brother who was shot during a street fight. Only thing is, Chris brown was the dead brother and he died abt 10 mins into the show. Was kinda sad, he is a good dancer and i wanted to see more of his moves. Went home after that, sorry dear din accompany you longer. Went to the basketball court with cy as i heard ernest leong was going to be there. And indeed he came. Its been awhile since i see him man. Still xia lan as usual. There were jokes here and there, after awhile me and cy went off to the park to played soccer. But there were something going on at the open area. So we went to the street soccer court behind bowen secondary. We played for quite a long time and when its getting darker, we shifted to another court as there was 2 there. One with lights on and another with lights off. When we are about to go off, some indian kids wanted to play with us. And indeed they are noisy man. Scolding each other all the time and they almost fight with each other man. Wads wrong with them man. Feel like giving them one blow in their face. Went to dinner after that, food sucks man too much green chilli added. Actually was planning to spend our nights over at aaron's house but wei jie back out. So it was cancelled and i did not blame him. =D Reached home and bathed helped my mum mop the floor after i bathed. Din know she still dare to ask me to mop the floor as i broke a mop during spring cleaning before chinese new year. Haha. And now im just sitting on a chair resting and BLOG!


Stomp the yard showed me how united a brotherhood can be man.
Are we able to be like them?

Just got back from sentosa, and no doubt im all tired out. Still having tuition later in the day at 7. Hope i can pull this through.

Sentosa was fun. I think i had sun burnt on my back, but most importantly im more tan than last time. Thats good man, don't wanna be a white boy. Shiok-ness indeed, as usual when there is melvin around, there will be some evil plans up our sleeves. He was quite dumb too. He did not bring any extra clothes as it was his first time there. So during the journey we threaten to throw him into the water. But in the end he got in himself instead. I think he suffered alot of injuries. We threw sand on every part of his body. Actually there is a moment i wanted to have peace with him. But instead of shaking my hand and make peace, he started to throw sand at me and scolded me. So cy and i gather a large amount of sand and slam it on his back. =D I feel so bad man. I also grab a handful of sand and put it on his hair. AND I SAW NOTICE SOMETHING SICK MAN. We were all laughing about that thing and you all really dont wanna know what the hell is that man. I know it seems very bad laughing at people but i just cannot control myself man. WAHAHAHA!



Feeling much better. Thanks to everyone who talked to me. =D

Going to sentosa later, meeting at 830 at the MRT station. It was a last minute decision so not many ppl is going. I think there is about 8 who are going. Dear sorry that i called u last minute and woke you up. And cause u not being able to sleep.

Had not slept since yesterday and god dam im tired man. Still having tuition later in the night 7 pm i suppose. How am i going to survive this?

When i was at des's house last night, i stood by the window for quite a long time just staring at the endless sky. Din realise his house have such a great view. I love looking at the sky, its just so nice. Just staring at the clouds and sky can make me feel better. MING TIAN HUI GEN HAO! I learn to appreciate the sky when i was working back in noel. Cause whenever i have any free time i would sit on the shelves and stare out of the window until the fax machine start printing work orders.


Its already friday. A week of holiday is gone just like that. Just a few more days to go before starting school again. I must treasure these moments well man.

Im bored, so i decided to blog to improve my english. Not only that, i can improve my typing skills. I was a retarded in typing in secondary 2. And my friends are all laughing at me as i was dam slow then. But when im in sec 3, i began to type faster and i owe this to maple. Training at places like sotong, i cant afford to type any slower. If i type just abit slower that means another 1 hour of training before leveling. Somemore i got such entertainers on my buddy list who entertain me all the time. So i have to reply them. Although im still not that good until i can type without looking at the keyboard, but i think this is good enough.


Last night went jogging with my brother. About a 2.4 km jog, which is kinda tiring after not running for such a long time. At least i did not stop along the way.

I feel like doing things that i dont do everyday EXCEPT STUDYING, but i dont really know what im able to do.

Playing soccer more and more often nowadays. I like that. This kinda bring our friendships together.

Got a very strong feeling that sentosa will be cancelled. What to do, dont really care abt it. Lessons in school cancelled tomorrow thats why im still up so late blasting music into my brains. This feeling is.... AWESOME! No worries im using headphones, so my mum and brother or even neighbour will not be awaken.


Hmm. Where have my mood been to? I think i lost it somewhere which i dont know of. So im living a moodless life now. No worries all my people around me, inculding you my dear, it have got nothing to do with all of you. Maybe if you understand me very very very well you will know why. Dear i think you will be blaming yourself that u dont me well and stuff after reading this. But i hope u dont do so. Even my mum who gave birth to me dint even notice something is wrong with me so dont worry. I guess no one in this world will know why, even myself. I shall work hard to find my mood back.

Actually i feel kinda lost. Thats all i know. IM LOST ! Please don ask me what in lost in. Cause i don even know myself. All i know its that this feeling sucks big time. REAL BIG. I just kept feeling something in me heart. I feel like shouting out loud with all my might but many people will think im crazy so i better keep this to myself until i got the chance.

Guess im gonna rot at home later in the day. Awaiting someone to drag me out. But i don feel like going anywhere.


In search for the perfect song for me now.

There seems to be a little problem with my blog. Hmmm. I dont know whether its blooger which is lagging or wad.

Hope that my friends and i will be heading to sentosa this friday or saturday. Just wanna really enjoy myself and forget all the troubles. Anyone who wanna tag along just let me know.


Hmm. Should i get a speaker on my own or ask my father to get one for me? But if i ask him to get it for me, it will take a long time before im able to get it. And im already very guilty as he's paying all my phone bills which is not cheap at all. Now i have only hundred and fifty bucks. Just another thirty more will be just nice. Dont know whether i should head to I shop to look for my brother's friend today. He is having his attachment there. Cool huh? Hoping to get some discount from him. =D But its at CINELEISURE! Its far man. Still considering now.


Did not realise step up's soundtrack can be so nice.
Awesome man.

If anyone wanna know why i blog so much recently? The reason is that im very very bored. Nothing much to do at home now and i dont really want to play any games now as its affecting me.


Fuck it man. I needa release some steam of my head and vent my frustration man. Why do i keep having this feeling inside me? Maybe i should bury myself in revision and studies and fuck care about everything else. But am i able to do it?




Feeling more and more fucked up each day.

Not many people can change my mood just by a flick on the finger. But yesterday someone did. I don't really know why its affecting me so much. My dreams is shattered just like that. Hmmm. Maybe the dream should not even exist in the first place. Maybe i should just take it like a man and get over with it, but it takes time.

Not going for english today. I think im going emo during chemistry lesson today. Not talking to anyone but ben tay. Maybe if jos, nic or even hao wei talk to me. I will give them a good scolding. Hot tempered guy i am huh.

Watch pursuit of happiness, a very touching story. Tears almost roll down my cheek at the ending. Cant believe a guy can do so much just to provide a good living for his son.

Yesterday evening was rather depressing for me. Something happen to one of my dearest friend but i dont really know what happen but i think everything turns out fine. Cheer up my friend.
My math teacher had an accident so her lesson was canceled. Was quite disappointed missing her lesson. Hope she recover faster and be able to teach us real soon.


It seems like people around me is having troubles with their life. Am i the cause of all this? Maybe im a jinx? Who knows. So stay away from me man.

Suddenly i got the urge to play a game of dota. But i will control myself not to do so. Going off to school really soon. Gonna be late.

Just got back from a haircut. With my nerdy haircut Im so ready to study man. Oh god nerdifiy me please. Im going to bring all my books to school from now on. Last night was awesome man. They only wanted to go home after day break. And i was super tired man. All because of akira. Scaring them with all the ghost story he got. Even the bl's hair was standing as he have to cycle all the way back to sengkang. I think aaron got freak out man. Akira talked about a ghost in the lift. And all of them have to take lift home except me. =D Aaron say he will lean against the wall in the lift to prevent anyone or anything to tap him on his shoulder. Then Akira's reply was, what if u see blood flowing down on the 2 sides of the walls in the life. That totally freak him out. He say he will wake his brother up just to accompany him to take the life. Its so funny if you can see his facial expression. In the end i got home at about 7. And i woke up at about 1130.

Plenty to write about what happen yesterday. A very long day in school, i tink i left school like about 1030 in the night. The first half of the day is kinda normal, but i tink i got scolding from two teachers and during math lesson i feel like a emo. doing nothing else but doing work. Thats not like my own self man. I even finish the homework in class and handed up to the teacher. I got to say my form teacher treats me very well. She gave me plenty of chances even not sending me down for a haircut by the DM. And im very grateful to that. She said i already have my charm and no point keeping long hair. I guess im going to have a hair cut either today or tomorrow. Dont really wanna let her down. And i will try my best to score an A1 in her subject. MATHS! After recess is kinda cool, we had a special assembly held by the principal. Its kinda like a leaving ceremony to one of the greatest teacher in montfort. Ms Chai. She will be heading to Hong Kong International school i suppose. I believe that is one of the area that she wants to conquer in her life, and i wish her all the best. She thought me in secondary 3 and no doubt she is a good teacher. I manage to pass my maths and i tink only less than 10 ppl pass. But i still cant get to secondary 4 express. I think i will go find her during one of the hoildays to wish her all the best personally. After all these, its the DOTA competition. We did not train much together before the game as bl's computer was down. The first round was against wen jun's team. Actually i was kinda scared before the game as we play with them before and they were not bad. At about 20+ mins a friend of ours accidentally walk pass the back of the computer and knock the wires out. Causing most of the players to be disconnected as he was the host. The kills was like 22-9 at that moment. I got a double kill. =D So we thought since we won by kills, we won the game. So we walked out of the computer lab breaking to news to others. While chatting we were called back in for a rematch. A game of 30 mins and tele the score after that. We were quite reluctant in the first place. But no choice man. So we went in and played. After killing 2 people in mid lane but one of the kills is given my ernest abd a triple kill by the great BL, they surrender. And we won. The second match was kinda scary as bl say their team is good and maybe even better than us. So there was this fear of losing in my mind. But it ended up pretty cool. Total ownage. I think only 1 of our tower is down when we got mega creeps. The third round is the losing round. There were some confusion but the game carried on. I still feel that we lost because of me. Sorry guys, If i have not miss that dagger epi. I tink we will win. Using sand king in a competition is no fun. The pressure on you is very high. I think im too kan jiong when missing that move. We were that close to a keyboard and a mouse worth $250. I know you guys did not blame me but there is just this tremendous guilt within me. And Bl and ernest thanks for the messages you two sended me. Really needed that. Maybe next time we can win a competition.

Brothers for life man~!

Finally playing soccer later after many weeks. Kinda felt the itch on my leg now.

Suddenly i got a urge to learn Muey Thai(Thai boxing) after listening to what a friend of mine had learn. Its so cool man. But i tink its gonna be real tough. Look on the bright side, i can keep myself fit and learn some self defence skill. Cool huh? My friend said the training will be on Bukit Batok and Pasir Ris on different days. 5 days a week. Hmmm. Its worst than rugby training man. Still under consideration. But it will be after Os.