Friendships down
Relationships down
Studies down
Physicial Conditions down
Wads up?
Pratically nothing.

Im here to blog because someone say its time for me to blog..



Some actions which happen in class. Seems like the people around me are having lots of problem in their life. The worst part of it is i don know how can i help man. This makes me feel hopeless...

Ben ar ben.. Cheer up my man.

Should i continue working?
This is one of the question which is in my head for the pass few days. Tired like fuck man. Too big a commitment for me. Spending every weekend working. Yesterday Ben, Anqi, Gary, Alvin and Robin come find me sia. Super touched. This is the ONLY time where people come and find me for lunch when im working. The FUCKING ONLY TIME. Such good frens huh? Even though i only knew them for like a month or so. Maybe some of them just happen to be in town so just meet up. But im still happy abt it. But ben and anqi came all the way here to accompany me cause im nt feeling so good these few days. Still wait for me until i finish work. I've gt nth to say man. seriously touched. Shall treat time to dou hua some time soon.



I don know wad are you thinking now, Or maybe i don wanna know. Everything has change. For the better or the worst? I do not know, its not for me to decide. One thing i know is, i miss the innocent and mature you.

This week is a very sick week for me man. Cant do anything correctly. Don know what is happening to me.. =(

Today regetta... All the best to siang ge and jeremy man! CHIONG ARH!

Today was a good day AT FIRST! Start the morning by going to school with daryl, gossip alot about everything as usual. When lesson start me and my classmates are still joking around happily. During mech lesson fall asleep cause I HAVE FEVER. Nice one man, 2 days of emo, thinking that today is a happy day but in the end, I fall sick. Still going for work later. I was like.... !@#$%@#@

Feeling dam fucked up lately. I just don know why. Saturday went to cck to find my siang~ge. Shocking but true. And i asked xt to come and find us also.. Cause i think im really emo. And im thankful that she came down.. That night slack until quite late before heading home. I also wanna thank my bro for coming all the way here to fetch me home.. Nothing much happen on sunday either, morning breakfast with mum, skip lunch and beancurd wif ben and frens again. Met a new gal name adrina i think. (sorry if i spell wrongly) And now im here at siang~ge house. Staying over here and going school together tomorrow. Shall hope that tomorrow will be a better day... And the emo-ing life goes on.........


J~ I am thankful for ur words but i just wanna know who you are.

Having bad mood since yesterday, donno how long will this last. The feeling is so fucked up that i feel like killing everyone around me including myself. Although i saw that seductive pair of eyes yesterday but it din help much.. Don know what is happening to me.. Everything had change.. When i say change i mean seriously changed.. Wad the fuck man.. Starting to have the all alone feeling now.. Now i don feel like doing anything except wasting my life away.. Rotting at home.. And lifting some weights... Ernest and gang went out yesterday but i din tag along.. Maybe is due to tiredness or lack of cash flow.. Fall asleep at abt 11 yesterday.. Woke up with a bad mood once again.

Donno the when is the last time i slacked wif ernest as he already have a gf.
And cheris my dear friend also have a bf already.
Ben is always busy with his school stuff and is going for field trip at underwater world. o.O
Daryl just got a job at Ben's and Jerry.
People i usually hang out wif is getting more and more busy. And all of you guys wanna know how i pass my time? smoke man. I smoke whenever i feel lonely. This sucks.
Wanna stop also hard. Distractions needed man. FUCK.

Knowing that i have lesser chance or even no chance at all make me feel worst. I don know anything about her life now.. All i know is about her past. But who gives a shit about the past. All people want is the present. Maybe there's someone out there who can make her more happy than she ever was now. So wad the fuck can i do?
And i was like.... CAN SOMEONE ENLIGHTEN ME?

Shall start this post with a LOL.
Donno why so happy sia. Must be chatting wif my beloved siang-ge. Morning daryl overslept. So i went to skool alone. And suddenly realise that IM BROKE! LOL. Slack throughout the lesson today. After skool GYM! LOL. Did shoulder today Dumbell 20kg sial~~~! Happy sial~~~! LOL. I know its not alot la. But im happy with it. After gym went to AJW's house to swim! CARDIO MAN~! So while me and siang-ge is swimming and suana-ing our dear AJW styed at home and slp. LOL. He's tired like a dead log man. So while swimming and suana-ing we chat about almost everything sial. LOL! LOVE YOU LOTS LA SIANG-GE! Dinner at KAP and home sweet home man. Waited for the bus fucking long and come one no air-con one. I was like..... -.- LOL!

Stayed at home whole day. Woke up at abt 9 and took 2 naps throughout the day sial. Sian. DINT STUDY AT ALL~! Yesterday went to forum espirt instead of liat towers. Its like old folks home there sia. Dam freaking slack one. Close at 8.30 liktat. Shiok sial. But after that i still have to go back to liat towers. !@#!@#$% When i reach there everyone was like shock la. All keep asking me, eh today you go work meh? o.O Haha they are nice people anyway. =)

Leg swollen sial. Pekcek arh!@#!!@#$ Maybe its due to just now soccer or gym. Kns. Saturday still needa stand whole day. Donno can tahan or not.

HAHAHAHA!
This morning when i met up wif daryl i was rather sad. =( Cause its tuesday and.....
But when we are eating at the canteen smth make me supper happy. LOL. Went for prac lesson and my dearest siang-ge came late cause he went to jalan kayu to take the car he rent. After lesson they drive car from block 46 to 50 dam funny. Shoik siol, the rest is like walking man. And Mr david is there also. After Compro lesson me and jw decided to skip lesson for the sake of ks. Went to west mall for subway and we treat him to lunch. First time in like donno how many months we go out and eat like that. Chat for quite awhile and its dam funny sia. After that went to jw house and work after that. Fuck man work. Haiz.

Had a fucked up day yesterday. Was actually going out but in the end it was cancelled. So spent the first half of my day rotting at home. At about evening my bro sent me to suntect city to get some stuff and thats about. While rotting at home i suddenly thought of wad my dearest AJW said to me. Girls can leave u anytime, friends can leave u anytime. But muscules wont leave you. I guess this is his motivation man. Going to start work next week. there goes my life man, selling it to espirt. =)