Having bad mood since yesterday, donno how long will this last. The feeling is so fucked up that i feel like killing everyone around me including myself. Although i saw that seductive pair of eyes yesterday but it din help much.. Don know what is happening to me.. Everything had change.. When i say change i mean seriously changed.. Wad the fuck man.. Starting to have the all alone feeling now.. Now i don feel like doing anything except wasting my life away.. Rotting at home.. And lifting some weights... Ernest and gang went out yesterday but i din tag along.. Maybe is due to tiredness or lack of cash flow.. Fall asleep at abt 11 yesterday.. Woke up with a bad mood once again.

Donno the when is the last time i slacked wif ernest as he already have a gf.
And cheris my dear friend also have a bf already.
Ben is always busy with his school stuff and is going for field trip at underwater world. o.O
Daryl just got a job at Ben's and Jerry.
People i usually hang out wif is getting more and more busy. And all of you guys wanna know how i pass my time? smoke man. I smoke whenever i feel lonely. This sucks.
Wanna stop also hard. Distractions needed man. FUCK.

Knowing that i have lesser chance or even no chance at all make me feel worst. I don know anything about her life now.. All i know is about her past. But who gives a shit about the past. All people want is the present. Maybe there's someone out there who can make her more happy than she ever was now. So wad the fuck can i do?
And i was like.... CAN SOMEONE ENLIGHTEN ME?