Suddenly feel like blogging. And im not gonna tell anyone that im doing so. SO if u happen to read this, u will be one of the few people who know. And not alot of people know this link to my blog. I SUPPOSE. (let me know if u do)

So much things have been going on since the last time i blog. Its uncountable man. Was just thinking, how complicated can one's life be? I know that mine is not the worst, but hey compared to the people who are around me, i think mine is quite in the high ranking of the list of FuckedUpLife. Seriously im tired of living. Everyday is just like a routine. Rest on weekends? Nah. I have to freaking work full shift every weekend. Waking up early almost everyday throughout the week and next week is the same old shit again. I miss the feeling of being able to wake up without the alarm clock waking me up. I believe some of my close friends had already know that i plan to die at 30. But you know, things change. Guess that mindset of mine will too. I cant possiblily let my mum see me die.

Thinking of my past memories. It makes me feel that alot of thing have change. Some of my frens have found joy in their life and some are still searching for it. For me, im grouped under the searching part. But what excatly is joy?
Having enough money to spend?
Spending time with your families?
Finding a good partner?
Buying lots and lots of branded stuff to impress others?
Doing stuff to make u look more attractive to the opposite sex?
Getting good results in whatever u do?
Whats the answer? I guess no one knows. I guess if u achieve everything frm above, you should be quite a happy person.

Thinking of my past memories also make me feels that i have no regrets even to die at this very moment. I had a peaceful, happy and normal family which feels like crap now. I had 2 wonderful girlfriends who are living their own lifes happily in different ways now. I experience wonderful times with my frens which i still enjoy till today. I had a few very good friends which i can share everything about. I met new friends who are really nice people. I tried most of the things that i wanted to do.( except for travelling around the world.) I caught up with some of my old friends.

And over the years i picked up a life skill. Which is to take it easy when life turns upside down. How i wish i learnt this skill a few years back. It will prevent plenty of stuff from happening. But what ever done is done, so just face it and walk over it.
Someone told me that my life is very carefree. I totally agree. But everything have its pros and cons. Being carefree mean you have freedom and have nothing to worry about. On the other hand, it means that no one care for u much. Trust me man. Sometime when you get emo, you will really feel the meaning of lonely. And as a cancerian, i do get emotional every now and then. Sometimes i will get frens like cheris, ben, ernest and the rest to come out. But when they are unavaliable, im all alone man. Alone in an empty house, looking at the laptop screen and sometimes having a beer beside it. Not a good experience.

Wrote plenty of crap up there. If you don really understand its okay. Cause i just write whatever comes to my mind. Even reading back i don even know what im talking about. I used to blog to imporve my english. But now i just wanna express how i feel.
Tommorrow is a brand new routined day. So NOT looking forward to it. =)